So, in my seemingly never-ending quest for healing from this most recent breakup (which of course is also about the previous breakup and the divorce etc etc etc), I've been reading the two books I mentioned in this post. And doing (some of) the exercises. It's still rough. My last post here was almost two weeks ago, and I wish I could say that I'm feeling different now, but that's just not true. Yet. Last weekend I found yet another self-help tool (yes, I am in danger of becoming addicted to self-help)--Kathryn Alice's guided meditation for releasing a person. I'd been reading bits of her book Love Will Find You using Amazon's "search inside" function and found my way to her website. I didn't want to wait for shipment, so I did the digital download. And it's good--her voice is calming and she thoroughly explains what you are doing and prepares you for the meditation by reassuring you that yes, it is time to release and yes, even if you may get back together someday, "You can never go wrong with release" because "If you are meant to be together, nothing can keep you apart."
I did the meditation Saturday night and I felt better. Then I had to do it again Thursday morning. She does say that it might be necessary to repeat. As necessary. And it was. And still is. Oy.
Time for some serious spiritual work. Trust. Pray. Cry.
Repeat when necessary. Again and again and again.
I am not familiar with these books. And I don't know why some breakups are so much harder than others. If we are caught more off-guard at certain times, and not aware of all the reasons.
ReplyDeleteBut I'm for whatever helps. I do believe there are many people we could potentially love. That always gives me hope.
The books are good. I recommend them. "Moving On" is pretty basic, simple--they ask you to do a "Relationship Inventory" and "Relationship Timeline" and a bunch of other things--the idea being that you have to "complete" the past relationships to eliminate the baggage. The two authors speak from experience and give examples from their own relationship history.
ReplyDeleteI'm still no closer to understanding what the hell is going on with me right now, but at least I'm in the process...